Make a change.

A girl named Marsya Elina was born on the 2nd of June 1999.
She's thirteen.
She's one person out of billions.
Out of billions, what change can a naive 13-year-old girl like her do to change the world?
What difference can she make in people's lives?
Every person born into this world matters.
How does this one girl matter to this world?
Heck, how does this one girl matter to ANY world?
It seems impossible that someone like Marsya can make a change.
How can she anyway?

It doesn't matter how. It doesn't matter whether she can or not.
What matters is that she tries, and that she's aware that she's supposed to.She grew up trying to make her dreams parallel and realistic with her abilities and the environment around her. That kinda made her limit her dreams. But what if. WHAT IF big dreams aren't actually impossible to achieve? Most magnificent things in people's live happened because they believed in themselves. Things that have been thought to be impossible have been proven otherwise. That's the change that those kinds of people have made. They made the world better, contributed to the community, changed lives and inspired people. They had determination and guts. "Quitting" never existed in their vocabulary. "Giving up" was a foreign word to them. Positive thinking and hope were their best friends. Getting back up after life pushed them to their knees was like second nature to them. The perfect example of someone who has achieved something that seemed impossible but had succeeded; the Prophet (peace be upon him). One man out of BILLIONS had changed the world. His influence lasted for many, many years, and will last till the end of time. He has taught and inspired millions, possibly even billions, dead or alive. His teachings and inspirations are what influenced many other people to continue to make the world a better place for us all. He's my teacher and my inspiration.

I CAN make a difference. It doesn't have to be huge, it just has to be a good change. How I will make that change is something I've never really told anyone. Maybe when I've succeeded, you'll realize what my super-awesome-secret-plan is. But my point today is, from now on I will believe that my dreams can and will come true, if Allah wills it. InsyaAllah, I hope Allah approves of my intentions and will give me the strength and guidance to achieve it.
That's right people. The person you least expect could make a change beyond your expectations, even if they're the least likely of people who seems to be able to.
Don't underestimate those with dreams of making a change. I have friends who believe with all their heart that they'll make a difference and change in this world. I believe with all my heart that they can and will.

Remember, 'impossible' is 'I'm' and 'possible' combined. Together, it makes "I'm possible'.
I'm possible.

What change will YOU make?
Cause I look forward to seeing you achieve it =)
Peace be upon you.


The ups and the downs in life.

The road to success has it's ups and downs. Like literally, when you're on the top of the bumpy road, it all seems easy to keep going. You just follow gravity. You can even run if you want to. Feel the wind, pushing you from behind. You feel so relieved, until you reach the bottom. Great, now you have to climb up the bumpy road. Defy gravity, and use all your will and energy to reach the top again. It's hard. Sometimes it's frustrating, cause you're so tired of going up and down and sometimes you just wanna sit down and rest for a while. But eventually, you'll have to keep going, or you'll die of starvation  and dehydration. At this point, having faith and being positive would be real helpful. The end of the road will lead you to a place full of unimaginable mouth-watering things you wouldn't even want to rest for, if you knew how beautiful the place really is. If we all knew, we'd probably even crawl up the road if we have to. Unfortunately, not all of us will make it there. Not with us always procrastinating in going through the steep part of the road. Not with us being distracted with things that are trying to stop us from reaching the other side. Not with us expecting to grow wings and take the easy way out. Life's not a bed of roses. You don't necessarily need to have physical strength to make it across. A strong, tough guy might just faint when they see a snake slithering on the road. Mental strength is important too. Positivity works far better than you know.

When life throws you stone or rocks or food or whatever and staying strong seems like the hardest thing ever, remember that it's a bigger chance for you to succeed. In a religious point of view, more challenges would mean more chances to get rewards, because Allah's testing our patience and how we deal with a problem, also to see if we'll go back to Him for help. So hey, doesn't that mean He loves you? He's giving you so many opportunities to prove yourself to Him, so many chances to prove that you DESERVE to be back home in Heaven.
In a general point of view, the challenges in life should be a motivation. If people are bringing you down, it's your chance to prove them that you're not just a piece of nothing in their life. Make your mark by proving them wrong, and making them wish they had never underestimated you. Even when you TRY, that's already a sign of proving them wrong.

Okay, maybe this is just a typical post that you've read everywhere all the time. But it's come to my attention that whenever some people are facing stressful and frustrating problems, they don't really know how to deal with it the proper way, till they do things that hurts them more. In example, shutting out from the world by not talking to ANYONE, self-harming by cutting themselves, eating excessively too much until they get sick, starving themselves, hurting other people with their words and stuff like that doesn't actually help them solve the problems that they're facing. I understand that sometimes, all you want to do is just escape from the pain. I know, I always feel that way deep inside. But the way we choose to escape really does matter.
So here are some suggestions, and I guarantee you WILL feel better =)

  1. Take wudhu'.
  2. Read Quran. Feed your soul, plus you get rewards.
  3. Pray and zikir, ask for strength and patience from Allah.
  4. Remember Rasullah SAW, how he misses his ummah, how he misses YOU, how he cried almost every night remembering his ummah. How you're hoping to meet him soon, insyaAllah.
  5. Talk to someone you trust. There HAS to be someone. If not, then talk to meee! :D
  6. Write about it in your journal, or blog or something, but keep it to yourself. This will help you have a larger view of your problems, instead of keeping it all in your head and thinking too much.
  7. Listen to POSITIVE songs. There are plenty, go on and explore.
  8. Sing your heart out with the positive songs. Like really, SING YOUR HEART OUT, even if you have the suckiest voice in the world.
  9. Watch movies or shows that makes you laugh and smile. 
  10. Hang out and chill with your friends and family. Go do something fun together.
  11. Cry your heart out. It's okay to cry. It's a sign that you have feelings that are fragile. Let all of your sadness out. After your cry, go do the things above.
Then go and prove to the world that you're strong. Even after having a breakdown, you still have the will to keep going.


It's not real.

"So it's you again."

This time, I can memorize the pattern, the things you do when your calling me. I don't have to turn my head or cry anymore.

"Why are you following me", I ask, and you never answer.

"What do you want with me?" again, only silence greets me.

This winter has been cold and ugly because of you. And now it's leaving, but you are not.

I am not afraid.

I think the mind can deceive the eyes, but can it lie to the heart?
Every time you come I try to look away, my mind says I can do this, I can stay.

Lies. I have told so many lies.
And no one hears it, no one but me.

You come closer...and I freeze.

"Your too big to be a dog", I try to reason, to clear my head "then what are you?"

"Whatever you want me to be."

And that's what scares me. It scares me that your everything fulfilling my every heed
Being everything I think I have to have
Until I can't think anymore
Your changing
I'm changing

"Why are you here?" I ask, aloud, barely a whisper,
I think no one can hear me.

You don't answer,
but I already know

I already know.

I open the skies

I open the skies...

I have heard time describing what I want to say with words. I'm not even good with focusing on what I want to say, expressing myself is an endless frustration; to me, words are not enough to show to the world what I thought are not formed in a sentence...I feel them. See them. And I understand them.

Adding to the problem...I lack an interest in, especially typing. I appreciate what the cyber era has given me, seriously I do. Its just that typing bored me. With the limited action and prolonged hours needed to conduct this simple yet needy action. And its such tedious work. Man could have at least invented a device where I could watch mini teli while typing. haha.

And for some weird reason, I seem to enjoy using words that makes me want to stop typing in the first place.

Oh romeo...why me? =D

Thou shan't tell me this wont be forever,
Then how shall I succeed this life without thee,
In light, there are no stars to watch,
Is this courage in the breath you gave me?
To give in or be subdue,
What does it mean to have all but one?
I am yours forever,
And let the sky alone be my witness...
Let it all but the sky be done

Written by a very peculiar girl in the morning - I know most of you can't believe it!
Enjoy my blog ;)


Everyone has their own flaws, even if you don't see it. For some reason, people tend to bring us down because of our flaws, making us feel insecure and embarrassed for not be as 'perfect' as everyone else who doesn't share the same problem. It took me a while to realize that it shouldn't matter. Don't be ashamed of your natural flaws, for everything has its own benefits. I for one, am a very blurred person, I'm always the last one to understand a joke or sarcastic comment. Whenever I don't know what's going on, people laugh and tease me for being slower to understand. Whenever I ask them to repeat something I'm confused about, sometimes they'd refuse to tell me because I'll never understand. Maybe they don't realize it, but it hurts. I didn't ask to be born this way, to think differently compared to everyone else. Even though it's a very minor problem, but when people judge, it's a painful stab in the back.

But then, I realized that being blurred isn't completely a bad thing. If I'm blurred about useless things that don't matter, that's great! I have more important things to care about, and if people are gossiping and talking about bad things, then I know I'll be thankful I'm a little blurred. Blurred people think a little differently. They DO try to understand things that confuse them. They think in a different angle compared to everyone else, which is why they see things differently sometimes. And it's actually a good thing, it makes them have different ideas.

I'm still a little blurred sometimes, but I think I've improve a lot since Primary 6, alhamdulillah. I used to be paranoid with people calling me blurred and all, but oh well that makes me special and different from them :P And I know that they themselves have their own flaws, whether I'm aware of it or not, so I shouldn't feel like they're better than me as a whole. What truly matters in the end anyway are your intentions and actions. People's judgements hurt, yes. But don't let it get to you. Remember that nobody's perfect, and the criticism positively. Prove to them that despite your imperfections and flaws, you're still a good person with a good heart and have a lot to offer the world.

In conclusion, flaws have benefits, and nobody's perfect. Allah's creations are all beautiful, and only He can judge what He has created. In His eyes, they're not flaws at all.

Do you have a flaw? Yes? Well don't worry, everyone else does too.
What makes you wiser is how you deal with it =)