Sorry.

She is so beautiful.

Hello guys. Sorry I haven't update my blog for such a long time. I'm not busy (well, kinda busy), I'm so lazy. So far, my life's good. Just a few emotional breakdown and stuff. So how you guys doing? :) My school is awesome! I love secondary better than the primary :P no offence to the primary out there :) EVEN THOUGH WE'RE THE NEW STUDENTS (for secondary) IN ZE SECONDARY BLOCK, WE ALWAYS KENE MARAH WITH THIS THREE TEACHERS NAME, MR. ROZAINI, PUAN HAMISAH & PUAN AZREEN. BULLSHIT. I'm so pissed man. When we forgot to take our books, mula la berceramah di depan satu kelas. Haish =.= Haha, lol jkjk. But seriously, I'm serious. They never smile or laugh. Very emo person. I'm really pissed off. I want the primary teachers back. Hurkzhurkzhurkz. Hahaha, bitch laugh.

So, I haven't told you my love for One Direction. Ohh, wait, I have. But, nvm, I tell you guys again :P They are so amazing. I used to DISLIKE them, but now no. When I say I disliked them around...August, I belum lagi dengar lagu dorang and I haven't see their pictures or I don't know anything about them. So, I main cakap ah yang I don't like them and stuff. After I dengar lagu dorang after UPSR, I'm totally in love with them (but they can't kalahkan the K-Popzzz cause K-Pop are the best!)! So I take back what I said before, they're so talented! Their song What Makes You Beautiful is eargasm. One Thing too! I want to buy their album!!!

From left: Niall Horan, Harry Styles, Louis Tomlison, Liam Payne, Zayn Malik

Benci?

Hi guys, as you can see my title post, yes, benci. I don't really really get it why people keep on hating on someone. Maybe someone tu buat kesalahan and then you don't like them, then you hate them. Even though he/she already say "sorry" but you still hate him. Say whutt? What benefit do you get to hate him/her? Apa yang you dapat dengan memaki hukum dia? Dosa je you dapat. Dia relax, tak buat apa-apa, pahala free masuk dalam buku amalan dia. If you want to hate him, benci la. Tapi tak payah la nak maki-maki dia cakap dia tu la, hati busuk la. Hello? Cermin diri sendiri sikit tu eh? X de cermin? Cermin kecik sgt? Meh saya belikan ye? Sekarang ni, dia hati busuk ke awak? AWAK! Awak yang hati busuk sebab awak kutuk-kutuk dia. Ingat kau siapa ah? Kau punye negara ke ni? Suka maki-maki la, kutuk-kutuk org! Awak yang hati busuk sebab membenci orang. Just sebab kesalahan lama dia yang awak menyampah. Seriously la weh, die dh mintak maaf banyak kali, dh x nk fight lagi, korang besar-besar kan lagi. Apa masalah korang sebenarnya? Nak aku lempang muka kau?

Aku bukan benci kau! Tapi aku dislike kau. Kau punye perangai terhadap orang, MasyaAllah!! Seriously, just accept him la. Dh perangai dia mcm tu. Allah dh buat perangai dia mcm tu, accept je la. Bukan dia yang besarkan masalah tu, kau yang besarkan! Bodoh, sial!!

Kalau siapa terasa tu, terasa la ye? I'm being serious! K, bye!

Life-less

Life can be complicated, hard, and confusing. But it is ultimately very beautiful. Life changes, and as it changes, we change with it. We may complain about how "life sucks", or praise how amazing life is to bless us with what we have at the moment, but in the end, no matter how we feel towards it, we are living in it. We live in it now despite thinking about the future, the past, or the present. And how could us say everything in our life are going wrong instead that Allah plans everything right?

We face what is thrown at us. The stress from work and school. The loss of friends and family members. The broken trusts and relationships between people you were once close with. Our past failures and mistakes. We reflect on those times. But we move forward. We get past the stress, we gain new friends, we build stronger relationships with family members and people we wouldn't have expected to get close with. We learn from our mistakes and failures and grow.

We find more reasons to get up in the morning, more reasons to smile and laugh so hard that we cry. We keep moving; we keep living. We create new experiences. We may wish we hadn't done some things, but later we feel glad we did as we learn from our past actions. We find love, we lose love, but only to discover we've been loved the entire time. We often love life, then hate it, then love it again. But no matter what it is, we're living in it, living in life. And with all these inevitable changes leading to different experiences, different emotions, different settings, different people, etc..I don't know, I just find it all very beautiful.

I always been thinking for this lately. I don't know how to express my feeling right now, I don't know how to start. Sometimes, I feel it wrong for me sharing something bad of people in my blog. I mean, even though I don't use names, but everyone who's close to me can understand the clues in every single word I wrote. And maybe, that person who read my blog will 'terasa' with my post because they'll know that I am talking about them. And people around me will have a bad thought to others that maybe the one that I try to say of but actually they aren't. How mean isn't it? I don't know how many times I've hurt people but sorry can't fix their broken heart.

I'm tired to feel like this anymore. I am done now.